Sunday, May 20, 2007

SUICIDE GIRLS TONIGHT AT MIDNIGHT!

Just a reminder, I'll be the guest on the SUICIDE GIRLS RADIO SHOW tonight from Midnight to 2AM Pacific Time on Indie 103.1 KDLD in Los Angeles and KDLE in Orange County. For those of you outside of Southern California, there is a PODCAST AVAILABLE. I'm not a listener-to of Podcasts. I'm too old to understand the concept. But I can see on the page that you can either listen to the show live or download it. If it don't work, maybe you can try writing to Suicide Girls or Indie 103.1 directly. Won't do a lot of good to ask me because I am mucho stupid about this kind of computer techno stuff.

Thanks to everyone who showed up at the Bodhi Tree on Thursday. We had a good turn out, though I know a few of you are looking forward to future lifetimes as cabbages. Sorry about that. But I did warn you.

I'm terribly uncomfortable with the rockstar hucksterism involved in promoting a book. But I figure my book is way better than pretty much anything else out there on the market. So if you're gonna buy books, you oughta buy mine. In Los Angeles it's perfectly socially acceptable to be promoting yourself constantly, whereas where I grew up in Akron it isn't. I'm gradually getting used to this. It's just part of the job.

As far as Buddhism is concerned, it presents some dilemmas. We're always told to avoid fame and wealth. Now, wealth I have no trouble at all avoiding. You would be shocked to know how poorly most writers are paid. The few that make truckloads of money get a lot of press. But most of us are barely getting by. I'm OK because I have a real job too. But there's no way I could quit that job and live on what I make from writing.

But fame, on the other hand, is creeping up on me rapidly. As a Buddhist dude I get a lot of the downside of fame with not a whole lot of the perks. I mean I ain't getting rich. Legions of hot girls do not throw their panties at me when I speak. But I do get viciously criticized by people I don't know, I get asked personal questions by strangers who assume they know me and there are lots of demands on my time. I'm not complaining, really. I do this of my own free will and I could stop if I wanted (sounds like an alcoholic, but honest, I could).

I have some actors who attend my classes and they're usually worried about this kind of thing too. But if you're an actor a certain degree of fame is required. If you're a Buddhist teacher it's the same. Dogen left Kyoto because he was getting too famous and the other teachers in town didn't like that. He didn't move out to Fukui prefecture to avoid the spotlight, though. He moved out to avoid the bullshit he was getting from those dudes down in Kyoto. He didn't write the things he wrote just to stuff them in a closet to rot away. He wrote because he felt strongly that he had something of value to contribute to society. Buddha himself was very popular in his lifetime and he did nothing to try and shun that popularity.

The big problem with fame is in courting fame in order to be famous or in order to be rich. That road leads nowhere. On the other hand, if you're an artist who believes in your art then there is no sin in promoting it.

So listen up tonight and see if I get any undergarments thrown at me live on the radio. I wonder what would happen if I did...

48 comments:

Kozan Bob said...

Brad I wish I could listen to the podcast of this show, as small chance I'll be awake between 2 and 4 a.m. Central time when it's broadcast, but the Suicide Girls podcast archive seems to end in October of last year, as their videos seem to end in December. If anyone know a way around this, please post it here or just let me know!

Anonymous said...

man i sound so gay when i listen to myself. thanks for your time brad. you could tell i was actually very anxious

"demons" still lingering if you wanna be gay about it.

wanna practice more zazen but big doubts about becoming a vegetable.

thanks again...

ed kidney

Anonymous said...

you know america sucks... it's filled with such humungus ego's in both negative and positive extremes. no one's equanimous because there's nothin to beleive in anymore. all hope is being lost....

but i think there's an upside to all this craziness that's getting worse everyday. i'm optimistic like brad, but i think it is seemingly going to get a lot worse before it get's better

kidney

Anonymous said...

i tried to call back and the girl (she sounded hot by the way) said she wouldn't let me back on even though the other ditzy girls said that it was ok.. j/k... then i tried to call back like 50 mroe times but didn't get anything. i was gonna pertend to be brad from santa cruz. i had a story made up and everything....

two questions...
1) What does "you're practice consist of now?? i know dogen concluded that one never stops practicing. And you elude in hardcore zen that there still are gians this far down the path but you never elaborate on any of them.. so i was just curious about that..

2) What's your opinion on self-enquiry. Particularly the "who am i?" question. There so much that i can talk about it if i wanted to. In "zen methods and philosophy by siekedia or whatever, he just barely mentions it saying that it's bad that it "withdraws people". I honestly think it needs a little bit more debate from the zen guys, because i have reasoned otherwise...

ejkidney33@gmail.com

itisnotreal.com

Jinzang said...

I know a few of you are looking forward to future lifetimes as cabbages. Sorry about that. But I did warn you.

That's okay as long as I can be an enlightened cabbage.

Jinzang said...

man i sound so gay when i listen to myself.

Two words I don't understand (as terms of abuse): "gay" and "hippie."
Folks, listen to Captain Chesapeake and just be yourself.

Lone Wolf said...

Glad to know there was a good turn out at your first book signing Brad. Looking forward to hearing the podcast. Watch out for those undergarments, fabric can be dangerous.

Anonymous said...

So yeah, don't think you can know Bradikins, his depth of being is unfathomable my mere mortals!

What if Brad was one of us?
Just a slob like some of us
Just a stranger on a bus
Trying to make His way home
Oh no, need to know y'all

Jinzang said...

What if Brad was one of us?
Just a slob like some of us


You haven't been paying attention. Brad is a slob like one of us.

Anonymous said...

Is it just me? Sometimes I wonder if I'm loony. I sit zazen and I don't expect anything to happen. I don't give a rat's about enlightenment. I just want a half-hour or so of sitting with me...and then I want to have some tea and play with my cats. Maybe I am out of me head, eh?

Anonymous said...

Enlightenment is not about a rats ass.


Did I say that out loud?

Anonymous said...

LMAO...did I say a rat's ASS? I think not.

(a la Tweety Boid) Yes, you did! You did! You DID thay that out loud!

Anonymous said...

Brad is a slob like one of us.

It's bad faith to pin it down this way, JinZangy, as it mentions. It doesn't likes it, it threatens it's existence.

As a curative potion for your bad faith, I suggest you do something a tad sloppy, so the antibodies will kick in, HELLO?!

Jules said...

Jinzang, didn't the great Mulamadhyamaharamalamadingdong say that all cabbages are inherently enlightened already?

Jinzang said...

No, it's in the Ratnagotravibhaga.

Anonymous said...

I see the rat concept will not go away so easily... :D

Anonymous said...

I smell a rat... oh wait, sorry.

brad said...

You can be gay and happy! Uh, I mean happily gay.

Jared said...

Not when Big Brother doesn't recognize your Civil Union as being equal with a Marriage you can't! Death with Big Brother! Down with Oceania's archaic class system! Long live Goldstein!

Anonymous said...

I'm happy---and, according to some questionnaire from Tickle.com, I'm 92% gay. Well, boy howdy! :D

Anonymous said...

I think I'm in love with Jared! (smile)

Koudelka said...

All this talk about enlightenment is making me sick.

Ah Heng said...

Do visit my blog dedicated to Dizang Bodhisattva at

http://www.never-abandon.blogspot.com

This comment may not be directly relevant to Brad's blog, but I hope Brad wouldn't mind some publicity for a great bodhisattva :)

Anonymous said...

Hey, Koudelka, me too. Let's eschew the "E" word.

brad said...

I see all my gays have shown up.

Francisca said...

I am not saying a word about panties. Before someone starts about boobies again.

Lone Wolf said...
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Lone Wolf said...

Speaking about being gay, (which unfortunately I'm not...sorry fellas). You can check out pictures of me wearing a wedding veil and holding a bouquet of flowers with one of my favorite authors Chuck Palahniuk (who does so happen to be gay), the man who wrote Fight Club, on the Rant Tour 2007 at my picture blog.

http://lonewolf108blog.blogspot.com/

Brad, I'm still reading Hardcore zen and loving it. So what was that snappy comeback you didn't say to your wife? Just kidding. I'm noticed that all the topics, such as killing anger, dealing with stress, etc, go back to recognizing there isn't a "self", which can be expierenced by practicing Zazen everyday. Very Nice!

brad said...

"So what was that snappy comeback you didn't say to your wife?"

[swish swish, snaps fingers] "You go girlfriend!"

Anonymous said...

brAD - whatever happened to your thinking it was not so cool to comment on your own blog? I am glad you are finally are. I always wished you did more of that. before I quit sitting zazen, I had an insight about being gay or being straight. Both viewpoints are idiotic. I can still tolerate talk about enlightenment, but people claiming to be gay or straight make me sick. That is dualism of the WORST kind.

Lone Wolf said...

Correction: I meant to say Sit Down and Shut up, not Hardcore Zen.

LOL! Brad, I will have to remember that snappy comeback the next time I'm in an argument.

Koudelka said...

>>Anonymous
Actually, duality doesn't even exist, unification is expressed in dualistic terms. OOPS YOU'RE GAY?

Lone Wolf said...

Brad -

In SD&SU (not HZ), chapter 10 Cleaning Up Your Room (Which really helps me, because I hate cleaning my room. Thanks!), you say, "So let's take a look at the fact, shall we, and try to work on why it may yet make sense to follow a practice that offers you nothing for all your hard work.

I failed to connect how chapter 11 Evil iS Stupid answers this. I also felt that you just wanted the reader to cook it for awhile themselves. I've cooked it and it's a bit charred. I would like to know your thoughts on the topic? Thanks! And double thanks for writing this book. I'm only half way through and to me it's the best damn Buddhist book ever written in Samsara or Nirvana (Yeah, I know that was corny).

Mermin said...

Where is the podcast ? I only see podcasts to download until 23 Oct 2006 :(

Anonymous said...

i'm gay for zazen!

-bluewolf

Anonymous said...

...and "enlightenment" is a four-letter word right along with "ego". that's right, count the letters....

-bluewolf

Anonymous said...

Koudelka - common man.. you see me wearing this stupid gay hat don't you? of course i'm gay.

Koudelka said...

>>bluewolf
Nah uh, ego is fun! Let's play games. :D

Koudelka said...

>>Anonymous
YOU HURT MY FEELINGS, SHIT SHIT, PLEASE STOP. :'(

Anonymous said...

k - sorry about hurting your feelings. i know it's not easy being you.

Koudelka said...

>>anon-e-mouse
Quite the opposite, I don't have any trouble being myself. :D

brad said...

"brAD - whatever happened to your thinking it was not so cool to comment on your own blog?"

There is adherence to form, which I'm a firm believer in, but I'm not a mindless automaton afraid to deviate from any predefined sense of identity and who must maintain a consistency in practice to maintain.

Don't get stuck in appearances or in identifying with any aspect of yourselves, no matter how big or how small. This is vary heart of hardcore zen, that all you guys can be gay and still be awake, the two are not separate.

John said...

Everyone is Gay

Koudelka said...

o/~ What else can I say o/~

Anonymous said...

yup - fame is creepy for sure. Love the new book so far..(p. 22). already underlining and writing in margins like a dweeb. Thanks!!

Ron said...

I'm 62 and have been reading zen literature for over 20 years and never bought into meditating. After reading one chapter of your book I packed up all my other books, took them to the library and came home and meditated. Thank you

Anonymous said...

I too have been uncomfortable with increasing levels of fame and with self promotion (I am in the music industry). But in the past couple of years, I have experienced a shift and I chalk it up to my Zen practice.

Music is my life's work. If I am to do that wholeheartedly, I am supposed to create/ maintain public interest. If I don't, then I'm not doing my job. I can feel icky or not, that's something extra.

www.myspace.com/lisamannmusic

Anonymous said...

Are you aware that Suicide Girls have a very abusive contract ?

the contract contains many clauses that cannot be canceled and stay up for life.

including the right to current and future pictures (basicaly killing their model carreer)

they also not only give up the right to make civil lawsuit against the site, but become responsible for the site defense if a third party sue on their behalf.

clause 4 is most nteresting as it forbid them to sue the site in the event of injuries or death

you still sure you want to associate yourself with that kind of site ? and promote the exploitation of women ?

Have a nice day !