Sunday, March 19, 2006


So I'm sitting there this morning, doing my regular Zazen as usual and it just kinda hits me; this whole "thinking not thinking" thing.

For those of you who don't know, there's a famous Zen story. Dude goes up to a Zen Master and asks, "What are you thinking sitting there?"

Zen Master says, "Thinking the concrete state of not thinking."

Dude says, "What's the concrete state of not thinking?"

Zen Master says, "It's different from thinking."

Like everyone who practices Zen, I hit this state of not thinking and miss it in more or less equal measure. After 20 years of doing the practice, the neurotic belief that my thoughts really mean anything important has pretty much worn away. That's a very important step. And it takes many years to get there and a lot of real effort.

But the habitual regurgitation and rumination of thoughts by the brain is a hard habit to break -- even when you know they're all bupkiss anyway. But, just this morning I hit upon that sought after state of non-thinking and noticed how it was done. It's not a matter of trying to add some kind of energy into the equation which somehow stops thought. It's a matter of subtracting energy.

It takes energy to think. We don't usually notice this. But thinking the way we usually do is like any other habit. Twiddling your thumbs, for example, or tapping out rhythms to songs only you can hear. To stop thinking, all you really need to do is stop using energy to regurgitate and ruminate upon thoughts. It's a matter of not starting rather than stopping.

Just something I thought I'd share.